The view through the smudged window was unextraordinary; the desolate brick and cement invoked not just no interest but a distinct restlessness that didn't help her temperament. She had the option of turning around and greeting the harsh fluorescent lights of the waiting room but decided the former was the better option and returned to the window and the soft vast expanse in the glass. She wished to be one of the buses hibernating in the darkness on the far side of the square.
The clock struck twelve and a woman next to her got up and left. She had been called, no doubt, saved from this transit purgatory. She felt envy and rather fixated the emotion on herself: why hadn't she just arrived later! But realising the behavior was not conducive with regard to the further two hours of waiting ahead of her, she tried to calm herself and went back to the stillness of the window.
She stared at the empty bays though found herself imaging the blast of white light that preceded the grand, air-conditioned, floating, cloudy bed with the orange sign warmly signaling B A R C E L O N A and the driver with his pressed collar and shiny black shoes who would ensure she traveled in her dreams.
So she got up and strolled over to the vending machines at the far end of the room. Usually she would have rolled her suitcase along with her but considering the circumstances she didn't care: the imminent bottle of water, and should her pockets provide any fortune some chocolate, carried the gravitas. Besides there was only a couple of middle aged ladies sitting at the opposite window across from her and an old grey haired man whose desire was just to pace the length of the window in keen interest as if he was viewing an aquarium.
Much to her great frustration, and verging on a rage-filled-screaming-fit, after an intense drawn out process of careful consideration, the machine wouldn't take anything less than 50 cent coins so she was unable to get either the water or chocolate. Compelled to buy something after making the decision and the move, she didn't want the ladies to think her strange or poor, she was sure the old man who had been still in an outward blank stare for the past few minutes hadn't noticed, she settled her lone euro for an unsatisfying pack of mints.
The mints at least provided some stimulation and her eyes had adjusted to the harshness of the room. The ladies sat whispering in front of her though they might have been shouting, the dimensions of the room had grown over time and it seemed to stretch full length across her flat world of eternal sunshine. Though their mannerisms suggested it might have been polite whispering. And she was satisfied, as she animatedly took another mint, that the whispering was not about her.
The window behind their heads was glared and she was unable to see if the ladies were neglecting a better view than hers they might have been privy to. Though to be fair, it seemed much the same, much darkness, much nothing, and her reflection caught her attention. Not good, she thought, this light would be doing her no favour. How she usually spent this hour of a friday night still preparing to venture out with her friends escaped her. It's just different, she concluded without pause for consideration and played at her hair in the window until she was satisfied - in case of the remote chance there might be a bus driver of interest.
Apart from her reflection there must have been something on the window because the old man persisted. He'd resumed his pacing the length of the glass as if he himself were in a cage fixated on the concept of freedom. She studied him a bit closer, with literally nothing else to look at, he walked slowly with that typical hunch that she was unsure why old people ended up with. He was dressed well, but not well, just neatly; with an ironed white collared shirt tucked into a black belt raising brown shorts to the knees; and with white socks pulled above polished black leather shoes; he carried a shoulder length leather bag, roughly the size of her purse, that was apparently empty the way it flapped about him. He almost looked like a bus driver. Yes, that was it. He was a bus driver, longing, forced into retirement with his gold watch (that might have been hiding under his buttoned sleeve) after a lifetime of service. With no foreseeable purpose in life he came to the waiting room of his old bus station to watch the buses flow in and out and reflect on his days when he lived this life at its peak. She wondered if he was even waiting for a bus, but without emotion, and eventually grew bored of the old man and returned to the window.
At one o'clock a bus arrived as if shipping in the Vegas Strip and unloaded a buzz of light and sound and movement; passengers fell about the station and hurriedly collected their suitcases before hunting down the exit like a wolf gang. Then the driver, after extinguishing his cigarette on the tarmac via the polished toe of his black boot, put the bus into a reverse of beep... beep... beep... beep... then the woosh as the clutch was stomped and the beast directed forward and its rumble faded from whence it came. It was all over so soon, in a matter of minutes, and a fading memory as the still darkness returned to consume the world.
A dog stood in front of her, blank and curious. She had heard a scurrying and had turned back from the window to meet it. She looked at the old man and the ladies - both displayed no interest. It seemed pleasant enough, it was obviously a stray but it wasn't bloody and didn't appear aggressive, she thought it was in a pretty good state. So when it settled, content with a certain area on the grey tiling for a place to sleep, she remained unmoved and just observed the brown, warm looking foreign thing as it fell into some strange state of alertness of which she could relate.
Her eyes were only resting, she insisted, when the pitter-patter of paws sounded again. She glimpsed them scampering back out the door and then heard the growl of a bus. She was the only one in the station now and she grabbed her things before walking out into the summer air. The white light of the bus was blinding but she could make out the illuminated destination. The screech of the brakes and then the release of the compressed air brought it to a stop. She gave her ticket and climbed on board.
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